The Music Business: We're Surrounded By Some Seriously Sadistic, Self-Centered Bastards
Editor: Tef Poe is an artist from St. Louis city. Through powerful imagery and complicated honesty, he has earned a reputation as one of the best rappers telling the story of St. Louis, which is about much more than one place. Poe has been featured in music publications such as XXL and Urb Magazine. His project The Hero Killer was released on January 21 and will be followed up by a full-length with DJ Burn One entitled Cheer For the Villain. Follow him on twitter @tefpoe. Get The Hero Killer here.
I'm sitting here 4 a.m. listening to the Chopped N Screwed version of Kendrick Lamar's Good Kid, m.A.A.d. City album (brought to you by Purple City). Honestly I think it's amazing, and suddenly it dawns upon me that I need to get this week's column done. I'm moving into a new apartment, so I'm kind of packing, but realistically I'm just letting my ADHD get the best of me. I'm sitting here thinking about life and all the wonderful troublesome things attached to it. Most of my thoughts are consumed by music and lofty visions of what I'm going to do next in order to add more progress to our movement. Here's the reality: I'm going to jump on the high horse and speak the real for a second.
Last year in my city I didn't matter much to a sea of people. We've always had a quiet movement growing on it's own terms; as a solo artist I've kind of always been around in terms of St. Louis hip-hop. We're talking years upon years of being patient and building a buzz. I've been rapping for a while, but the last four years are the years in which we decided to make our presence known. I'm not at the finish line, but I'm closer than before. I'm in a position to let you know that this life sucks.
I have 3,000 problems, God just piles them onto my tab more and more. I'm just trying to live with a positive attitude and continue progressing my situation. The politics of the music scene don't care about my rent, but truth be told I don't care about the politics, because the politics would've let me died as a dishwasher. Either way, as of right now if I die, I'm dead broke and useless.
You see, by the time you get to a point where everyone starts watching your next move and overly analyzing your Facebook statuses, suddenly the asshole tendencies you never realized you buried inside you start to rise and come out. You just grow to the point where you give two shits about an opinion. "Hey Tef Poe you could've blah blah blah." "What did you mean by blah blah blah?"
The real about it is, this shit sucks. I'm planning on using more profanity than I've ever used in my previous writings so hold tight to your fucking seats.