Last Shot: Cancer Fatigue is Starting to Beat Me Down

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Lindsey Best
Andrew Youssef
[Editor's Note: Long-time concert photographer Andrew Youssef found out two years ago that he had stage IV colon cancer. In that time, he has continued to shoot tons of music events, on top of other freelance work and working a day job at a hospital, of all places. As he continues to fight for his life, this series allows him to tell his story in his own words.]

I don't know if I have said it before, but I would like to reiterate that having cancer sucks. As I mentioned in last week's installment, I have been battling fatigue. I have had a good track record of completing my photo assignments in spite of having cancer. Most recently, I barely accomplished photographing metal legends Black Sabbath at Irvine's Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre.

See Also: Last Shot: A Concert Photographer's Battle With Cancer

In preparation for the assignment, I was in bed until 3 p.m. I stored as much energy as possible and made my way down to Irvine. The walk from the parking lot to the actual stage seemed like miles when armed with two heavy cameras. But I would use a wheelchair or a stretcher to photograph Black Sabbath, as they definitely are at the top of my bucket list of bands I have wanted to photograph.

Once the metal gods conjured up their unholy metallic thunder, the adrenaline would surge through my body and momentarily make me feel normal as I was happily snapping away. The adrenaline was well needed as Ozzy Osbourne deftly grabbed a bucket of water and nailed a photographer, who was completely drenched. I avoided the shower and was pleased with my resulting photos.

As the days went by, though, my fatigue did not improve. I received authorization from my insurance company to start the medication Aranesp (Darbepoetin Alfa) which will help stimulate my red blood cells and hopefully correct my anemia. Although I won't be climbing on a bike to do the Tour De France anytime soon, I just hope I don't have to sleep for fourteen hours in order to shoot a concert.

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flipdoubt
flipdoubt

I can almost relate since I  HAD stage four cancer (tongue). I am almost six years in remission or they say cured.

You know you can pretty much get any drug you ask for when you have stage four cancer. Ask for a stimulant and use it when you have something you wish to do. They had me on 300mg of oxy a day for the pain and I got some amphetamine salt so I could function still.

I was certain I would be dead soon and so I never quit any of my  bad habits. Downside is I still smoke.Irish genes. 

I never expected to be alive at this point. Each second is a blessing.

All through treatment I had massive stress from being sued by a white collar crook for a huge amount. At the time it was all I could think about because I have a eight year old.

I remember how everyone told me a different thing I must do to beat cancer. Do this -do that.

I hated it.

I am going to be a hypocrite and tell you something to read or check out:

Johanna Budwig or the budwig diet 

healthwyze.org/index.php/component/content/article/190-cancer-revisited-the-industry-suppressed-budwig-regimen-or-how-to-cure-cancer-with-cottage-cheese.html 

PS I did not do the budwig diet I followed doctors advice huge radiation and chemo.

You have no idea how important everything in your neck is. 

my advice is find something to consume your thoughts that is worth fighting for.

for me it was my daughter and the f*** that was stealing her future in court.  

blather 

take care

you should get a free ride with stage four but as you know you still have all the shit you were dealing with prior to cancer plus ...

Did you go through a crying stage I sure did and anger. 

Life never goes back to normal if you survive.

I could go on and on but can imagine sounding crazed.

stage four cancer is the ultimate excuse for about six years.

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flipdoubt
flipdoubt

I can almost relate since I  HAD stage four cancer (tongue). I am almost six years in remission or they say cured.

You know you can pretty much get any drug you ask for when you have stage four cancer. Ask for a stimulant and use it when you have something you wish to do. They had me on 300mg of oxy a day for the pain and I got some amphetamine salt so I could function still.

I was certain I would be dead soon and so I never quit any of my  bad habits. Downside is I still smoke.Irish genes. 

I never expected to be alive at this point. Each second is a blessing.

All through treatment I had massive stress from being sued by a white collar crook for a huge amount. At the time it was all I could think about because I have a eight year old.

I remember how everyone told me a different thing I must do to beat cancer. Do this -do that.

I hated it.

I am going to be a hypocrite and tell you something to read or check out:

Johanna Budwig or the budwig diet 

healthwyze.org/index.php/component/content/article/190-cancer-revisited-the-industry-suppressed-budwig-regimen-or-how-to-cure-cancer-with-cottage-cheese.html 

PS I did not do the budwig diet I followed doctors advice huge radiation and chemo.

You have no idea how important everything in your neck is. 

my advice is find something to consume your thoughts that is worth fighting for.

for me it was my daughter and the f*** that was stealing her future in court.  

blather 

take care

you should get a free ride with stage four but as you know you still have all the shit you were dealing with prior to cancer plus ...

Did you go through a crying stage I sure did and anger. 

Life never goes back to normal if you survive.

I could go on and on but can imagine sounding crazed.

stage four cancer is the ultimate excuse for about six years.

 

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